I realized today that I don't want to get close to anyone anymore. My family just demonstrated that once you let your guard down, they will attack. That goes for all people, even me. I guess I can't blame us humans. That's the only way to protect ourselves. By attacking others at their weak point, we survive another day. I'm just sad that I had to find this out at such a young age. Even my own defenses-which is using my mouth and brain-was let down and I was attacked, by my own mother. I thought I would've learned by now, but I guess I didn't. Now, I don't even trust my own words. I have no defenses left.